October Ensign

http://www.lds.org/portal/site/LDSOrg/menuitem.b12f9d18fae655bb69095bd3e44916a0/?vgnextoid=2354fccf2b7db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=e5cbba12dc825110VgnVCM100000176f620a____

I don't know if the link will work but its is on the lds website...

Elder Holland talks about SSA in the October Ensign I only read the opening statement. He came and talked at the U last sunday... to say anything it was amazing... at the end he basically gave a blessing to everyone there and I cried because that was something I so desperately needed... but I don't think it is enough.
I don't have answers but I seriously think this is harder to deal with then they imagine? maybe not but they aren't helping much...